I cant decipher why I am feeling low right now, I know I don't care about what people think. I don't give a damn to others judgements. But deep down inside I do care about the people I wanna be like and what they think about me. Yea.. just like any other person I do admire certain people for certain things.
Eversince I have joined this place, I have been quiet laid back. I spent one trimester just trying to catch up with my new life. When people around me were busy reaching for what they came here for, I was busy trying to realize what was the exact thing I wanted. Seven months into the course, I sure have realized what I want out of it. But sometimes I feel I've lost the first bus, and the gap will follow through out the journey.
No matter how much I try to fix it, it will haunt me all life long. Does the whole scene matter so much? I cant decide.. for now.. I think it does.
Nidhi
