Tuesday, November 29, 2005

A Story Worth Reading . .

I had a very special teacher in high school many years ago whose husband died suddenly of a heart attack. About a week after his death, she shared some of her insight with a classroom of students. As the late afternoon sunlight came streaming in through the classroom windows and the class was nearly over, she moved a few things aside on the edge of her desk and sat down there. With a gentle look of reflection on her face, she paused and said, "Class is over. I would like to share with all of you, a thought that is unrelated to class, but which I feel is very important.

"Each of us is put here on earth to learn, share, love, appreciate and give of ourselves. None of us knows when this fantastic experience will end. It can be taken away at any moment. Perhaps this is the Powers way of telling us that we must make the most out of every single day."

Her eyes beginning to water, she went on, "So I would like you all to make me a promise. From now on, on your way to school, or on your way home, find something beautiful to notice. It doesn't have to be something you see, it could be a scent, perhaps of freshly baked bread wafting out of someone's house, or it could be the sound of the breeze slightly rustling the leaves in the trees, or the way the morning light catches one autumn leaf as it falls gently to the ground.

"Please look for these things, and cherish them. For, although it may sound trite to some, these things are the 'stuff' of life. The little things we are put here on earth to enjoy. The things we often take for granted. We must make it important to notice them, for at anytime it can all be taken away."

The class was completely quiet. We all picked up our books and filed out of the room silently. That afternoon, I noticed more things on my way home from school than I had that whole semester.

Every once in a while, I think of that teacher and remember what an impression she made on all of us, and I try to appreciate all of those things that sometimes we all overlook.

Take notice of something special you see on your lunch hour today. Go barefoot, or walk on the beach at sunset. Stop off on the way home tonight to get a double dip ice cream cone. For as we get older, is not the things we did that we often regret, but the things we didn't do.

Remember,


'life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.'

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

TWENTY.. THINGY..

well i hav been tagged by pradyot...
a blogger who basicallybelongs to bhopal...
my city... :)
let me get straight to the point... coz "20 things about me" .. is gonna b a real long post !!

1. i can spend my day with just 2 things.. either my computer or my camera..

2. i wanna c the world.. with no one except my camera.. i wanna capture the true picture ..of the different faces ..of the different cultures around the blue planet..

3. even though i giggle.. and laugh all the time.. its 1 in 1000 times that i laugh from within.. n most of the times its some kid.. or some some stupidity of some kid that makes me smile.. and laugh from within.. and every time that happens.. that kid gets some chocolate to eat !! .. ask my neighbours :) .. i love that innocence they hav :)

4. i was born and brought up in a joint family.. and im the only girl child in 3 generations.. hehe.. i hav been pampered like a princess.. but brought up like a boy.. coz i had 5 brothers.. (cusions and real)there ... that made me .. even more spoilt.. haha.. i screwed a test(like a boy).. got back home.. n had my family pampering me.. *koi baat ni bete.. next time*

5. there r some things that get attracted to me like that.. see.. if im walkin near a play ground.. then ne ball.. weather it b a foot ball.. a volly ball.. a cricket ball.. its oughtaa hit me.. & if im drivin.. and a dog is on the same road.. then that dog will get an affinity twards my kinetic.. and wud like to die ..commin under my vehicle..

6. i hate to make up my room.. i dun find a reason y .. i shud do that.. :D .. i mean.. im comfortable.. who cares about the ones who dun like an unkept space :P .. same goes for my cupboard.. :)

7. i hav spent half my life on fone.. and the rest on my computer.. (mom says that.. n i agree 100%)

8. i can say any thing to any body.. point blank.. im straight forward.. this is an ability to screw ur reltions with ppl..im learnin how n y one shulnt b straight fwd.. but if needed .. i can still say nething netime..

9. i think guys make better friends.. than girls..!! 2 girls.. being gud to each other.. and not being jealous of each other... thats something rare.. i dun say it dsnt happen.. i hav some really close frnz.. but thats rare.. i make better frnz with guys.. my dad asks me.... when was the last time.. a gal called you up ?? hehe :D

10. my dad is my hero.. my idol.. i can worship him.. :D .. he is my best frn.. yeah i dislike him for a few things.. but whos perfect?? his way of talkin.. his way of behavin.. that attitude.. i wanna b just like him.. i know thats too much .. i cant b that nice.. that perfect in every thing.... i mean.. He .. is just soo gud !!

11. People who know me here .. i mean the ones who know me as a real person.. think im the happiest person around.. coz they find me crackin PJs and giggling all the time.. if u think my blog reflects me.. its not so.. in the real world im a totally different person.. i dunno.. may b i use this place to pour my heart ..

12. Sometimes i feel so sick.. thinkin how cold i am.. coz i used to b person who used her heart more than her head.. n now its the other way round.. yup .. no one can fool u ne more.. u can survive in this big bad world.. but that some how makes me feel bad about myself..

13. i can do nething on the name of Sai.. i have his book .. "your questions Sai Babas answers" with me most of the times..

14. i can eat chalk.. i love eating 'batti' hehe i dunno.. kids use it .. to write .. i love eating it :D (* :O dun tell me uve never herd about batti :O*.. ur indian only naa???its like a thin version of chalk.. a lil mote tasty,.. a finer version of chalk)

15. i dun wanna get into a realtionship.. i think i can live my life without a spouse.. but guys who r witty .. who can make me laugh.. who can talk sence.. who have guts.. and who r simple.. really impress me..

16. i love standing under the moonllight and stare the moon.. and the stars.. as a kid i spent many moon lit nights on my terrace .. on a mat..in my papas arms :) .. he taught me about so may stars.. and galaxies :)

17. if theres ne one who loves me .. the most.. its my dad.. yaa.. not even my mom.. my dad.. i love my dad .. mom .. n my bro the most.. i can do nething for em.. can sacrifice ne thing to se e em smile :) .. i fight with em the most.. but i love em even more after every fight :D

18. i was in girls school .. so i din know how to talk to guys :P .. and in an engg college .. with max guys strength .. i took about an year to talk with em all.. i was considered to b one of the most spoilt and arrogant girls of my class.. coz i only taked with 2-3 guyz.. but its a history now :D

19. i think max girls of my school were stupid .. hehe..i said max ...not all... i mean... most of em think they r nothin less than a model material.. and im like shut up !! the mirror is about to break.. believe me .. this is a problem with an all girls school.. guyz giv a lil intrest ... and they go about tellin the world how he wags his tail behind them.. and then some silly sicko.. sittin on the back benches readin romantic novels.. thinkin a prince will come .. netime.. hehe..i was amoungs the pransters.. alwayz havin fun.. in ne grp.. at ne place.. :D .. and the sophesticated.. behenjis of my school wre like.. shut up.. bandar nidhi :P was more like a tomboy then !

20. phew !! last !! .. my kundali.. my hand.. every thing says.. ill b a rich person.. that ill have a kid.. a husband.. and a loving family.. at some point of my life.. i wanna have all that.. :) .. work.. mba.. society,.. status.. thats not all.. some where deep inside my heart.. i wanna b a peron like my mom :) .. but not just a home maker :D ...

i wonder what i wrote in last 20 lines.. hehe..

chaloo.. im not taggin neone.. if u wanna follow it.. ur most welcome :)

byeee

tc nidhi

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Ahh.. CAT.. over !!

Well... so is it time to change the blogger profile that i have there on the right hand side of this page?? i wrote that line.. my current aim.. CAT2005 and NID2005.. coz.. i wanted the page to remind me .. to get back to work.. every time i open it.. but now .. i dun think i need that profile ne more.. will change it... in last 4mnths ..some shitty.. crappy posts..explained the confused and wretched state of my mind.. but that phase is over.. CAT2005 is now a thing of the past !! horizon for me was CAT05.. din think about a day after it.. i mean.. ye i was confused about hcl.. cat.. mba n all.. but every thing i did was w.r.t. 2oNov.. huh .. and now that i hav taken the test.. i know wot.. the world beyond that horizon looks like.. life is still the same.. im still sttin in this room.. my study table is still unorganised.. the shelf is still lookin like it survived an earthquake.. i still hav a low balance in my cell.. my mouse is still blinkin..mom dad bro.. frnz.. every body is still the same.. my YM! still has a list of cat crackers.. who helped me all thru out.. life is still the same.. but the only objective that i had on my mind.. since last 1 year has lost its meaning..

CAT2005.. was nothin less than a disaster.. as expected.. the pattern was gonna change.. i was cool .. or in other words i tried to b cool..well last 2 days were fun..i had a put yest.. but skipped it..CAT was more imp u see..enjoyed all day.. watched 2 movies.. listened to music.. talked on phone.. chatted with neetie n abhi.. had to giv shilpi a treat.. gave her a treat yest.. did all that wud make me happy .. and today morning.. woke up with a big bright smile.. went to the center in that broken state.. n took the test !

wow wot a paper !! 90 questns.. max 2 marks question.. di was time consuming.. no anat questn at all.. huh .. just 10 1mark questns.. rest 40 marks wre from 2marks time consuming questns.. did well in di.. english.. if rc is not ur cup of tea.. think again..2 passages with 4 questns each.. and each questn carried 2 marks.. huh ! only THREE para jumbles.. NO infrential or summery based questns.. .. it was a disaster.. last 3 mocks i did so well in english.. n today i cant even think about recalculting my english score.. :/ .. quant.. well same..ten 1mm questns and rest 20 wre 2mm.. so one had to choose form 30 questns.. was a lil mor than avg .. in the level of difficulty .. now if u think that solvin a few topics can help u crack Quant in CAT .. think again.. its not like it used to be. . just havin a command on gepmetry n number system isint all.. ul only get 2-4 questns on the 2 topics :\ ya cutoffs will b (are) low....newayz.. so while a CAT cracker attempter 85+ questns in CAT03,04 .. here 90 is all u hav in hands..hehe.. choice is less.. if they follow the same trend.. 150>123>90.. next year the #of qstns will reach 45-50 i guess.. hehe.. so takin a CAT test next year is gonna b even more difficult !!! :\but 4 me ..CAT .. aah !! next year...
success is not a destination.. its a journey ... learnt a lot in this journey..improved a lot of things in me.. but a lot of things still need to b improved.. lottt..the test today proved that im not the material the IIMs r lookin for..it proved.. that either i try hard and take the test again.. or move ahead and do smthin else..but im happy that i tried .. im happy i din giv up.. i hate to think about the accident.. i hate to think about the torture that college gave us.. but at the end.. what eva happened .. was destined.. i wanna bury all this here.. n move ahead.. i din apply to many colleges.. just 2 cat allied.. MDI-hr n IMT ..but with this kinda performance.. i dun think ill make it.. huh ! was dreaming about CAT.. n look.. even IMT isint sure.. !! so now.. a few enterance tests.. 7TH SEM.. and then HCL...
LIFE.. SIMPLIFIED...
life still goes on..
life is cool..
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well happy bday hai hamare hemant BHAI kaa :)
happy bday hemant... i know ul never read this .. but i just wanna say this...knowingly or unknowing.. u hav taken care of me .. and ill really feel lost .. after college when il hav no body who'l take care of me :/ :( hemant ur one of the bestest ppl i have met in last 3 years.. ur my BESTUM BEST FRIEND :) thankx!!
happy bday to you..
happy bday to you...
happy bday dear hemant..
happy bday to you..
may the gud God bless you..
may the gud God bless you..
may the gud God bless you hemanT..
happy bday to... YOU !! :)
HEREs your cake.. PINEAPPLE?? yum yum.. ur fav .. though a choco fudge wud hav been better :D ..
u n joy
n hav fun with ur mechanical janglees :P
byee
tc
nidhi :)

Friday, November 18, 2005

CAT... 36.5 HRS AWAY...IM COOL !! HeHe..

well ...
so wots up???
CAT .. is like a quater mile away from me.. pressure?? stress?? tension?? huh !wots all that?? im cool .. super cool.. i dunno y.. but this cat thing isint making me go mad.. im gonna go there.. sit .. n work the whole thing out .. coz i tried to giv my max.. BUT.. accept it nor not.. theres something more than efforts.. more than hard work.. n more than what u desire.. some ppl call it destiny.. some luck.. some call it God..yep.. its all on Him..i did all i cud.. i mean.. i worked hard for CAT.. and then then whole accident phase happened.. which spoiled the whole schedule.. but thats all i cud have done.. so now if according to His plot ..nidhi clears CAT.. well n gud..all i can do is.. giv my best.. n then... LET GOD DO THE NEEDY.. :)

i hav been givin my puts.. (PRE UNIVERSITY TESTS.. ) since 17th.. and then had a few internals before em.. so u see. CAT was totally out of mind.. i dunno if thats gud.. or bad.. i dun wanna know.. or think about it either.. hehe.. i hav a test tomm as well.. im nt very well prepared.. and i dunno if ill give it or nt..but again.. im nt conserned.. well.. a far as prep is conserned.. all that i cud do for CAT in last few days.. was Quant revision.. that too .. cud revise only the basic concepts.. solved a paper yest.. got some 92%ile.. i dunno if i shud extrapolate that performance and figure out my actual CAT performance.. or shud i reduce it.. coz on CAT day.. ne thing can happen.. they say.. a person between 60-90 percentile gets a huge swing on the D-Day .. coz they giv the test w/o pressure.. and coz a huge non serious crown gets in... so where do i place my self??

ok i dun wanna get into that thing again.. i mean i dun remember when i gave my mind a lil rest... i hav been thinking all my life.. sometimes i get up at 2am and find myself thnking.."ok... so thats why he divided the whole equation by theta" ... or.."oh.. may b i shuldnt hav mailed sir about the whole issue.. " .. i dunno.. there hv been times.. when i hav done analysis of situation while sleeping.. and the moment i wake up in the morning im like..'ok nidhi.. abb next time se ye mat kario .. usne ye selfish behavior dikhaya.. u forgive and forget.. but beware' ..

ok leave it..i just proved how MAD .. i am.. all i wanted to say was.. im not insane.. i think too much.. :D so.. id like to put my mind to rest.. atleast i dun wanna think about CAT right now :D .. but i dun wanna study either.. :) .. wont mind bloggin ..

will post the 20things tag.. tomm :)

life is kool
miss me
nidhi

Friday, November 11, 2005

THIS WORLD IS FUNNY .. N A LIL STUPID ...

Just noticed... my blog crossed 9000 counts :D gud naa?? well i started bloggin 7months back.. n heres the counter telllin me that 9000 times some human or the other clicked the link to this place.. hehe.. i wonder y.. :P .. imean earlier wrote short .. posts.. but these days posts r long.. n r more of diary entry types.. hehe. guess dats y the comments has decreased.. :P

newayz.. well.. i dunno wot im doin here.. i had a test today. internals r on.. but it got cancelled coz of sm reason.. gud hai. atleast im prepared with smd a liil bit now.. koi de na de.. ill hav to take the test in a day or two.. :| coz i skipped my exam.. newayz.. a lot has been happening around me..both gud n bad... gud.. well one of my closest frn got engaged a few days bak.. sad. she din tell her parents about it :p .. gud.. my internals n studies r goin fine.. sad.. cat prep is suffering.. hehe..

newayzz .. well in recovering .. i went to the doctor. ..he said prolly by 23rd ill b free of this arm rest.. but cat is on 20th :( .. bad luck :D .. mom is fine .. we'll hav 2 take her to delhi for furthur checkups.. they say her heart has expanded.. n needs to b treated. n grand ma.. well her condition is deteriorating.. newayz.. cant help that.. she suffering every moment.. n in such a case .. n such an age .. its better for her to rest in peace.. thats wot every one who visits her says.. n i agree.. thats the only way out.. she is just too weak.. too weak.. to b operated.. n her sugar level is so high.. that operation isint possible at the moment.. nher age wont permit that either.. doctor says.. we shud call the ppl who wana c her.. huh ! i was the last person she really talked n laughed with .. i did a blog entry abt that naa?? she recieted a few stories.. after that so many ppl asked her to tell d stories.. but she din.. shedsnt recignise my mom n tai ji.. but when i visit her. she smiles n recognises me :) .. i dunno wot to say.. :) :) :) .. well she has lost the hope.. n thats the worst thing one can do in such a state.. :|

ok something. funny... i had a few aunties.. uncles.. neighbours n all who came to visit me tellin me that.. this is all bcoz of "gherahan" eclipse the solar n lunar eclipse that fell on the same day last month .. huh ! n i cant stop laughing :P .. come onnn !! they say.. these eclipse hav been the reason of so many bad things happin around us all .. hahahah .. plzzz !! one o my frnz .. he gave me a call.. n asked me.. nidhi.. tere hath pair theek hain.. i said yess.. he said.. ye gharen k karan sab k accident ho re hain.. tujh pe bhi bhari pada ye :P .. some of his frnz lost their hands n legs coz of accidents inthis perion .. n i was like SHUT UP u freak.. huh !! India.. nothin can happen to this country... where engineers .. believe in all these things.. blind faith !!
n then these aunties..with 2 liters of foundation on their faces.... thank gawd.. iske face pe kuch ni hua.. collar bone to theek ho jayegii !! plzzzz i need an oxygen cylinder... phew!!! ur here to visit me.. to tell me that my broken bones will b fine .. or to talk all that crap... face ko kuch ni hua.. dun ppl with bad face have a life..n agar kuch ho bhi jata .. to aap ki tarhe foundation laga letii :P or no wait a minute.. aap k face ko kuch hua thaa.. ?? jo itaa foundation :P .. lol ... mai bach gai kum he kyaa ??

went 2 college for 2 days in sucha broken state.. :D .. it was fun initially.. all the frnz .. class mates sympathising ;) for once .. instead of askin me to shut my mouth.. my frnz askin me to tell em ,ki kase hua yee?? but later i was so tired of tellin ppl.. that i hav a broken collar bone .. n that i crashed into a bus.. i started makin a new story every time.. i made some 7 different stories. of variable lengths..

" kuch nahi .. time pass"
"kuch nahi... empathy gain karne k liye"
"kuch nahi.. abhishek bacchan n i.. we were paraglyding.. fir. parashoot mera weight seh ni saka. n i came down :P"
"kuch nahi.. i fell off my bed"
"kuch nahi... had a wwe match with my brother"
"kuch nahi.. i fell off the bike ... john abrahem was driving it"
"kuch nahi i was tryin to commit a sucide.. fan se latak ke.. both fan n me came down" huh ..
"kuch nahi.. i was tryin to see how strong a delux bus is"
phew !!! a lot of them..

n ppl.. r stupid.. really.. the exclaimations..
"yee kyaa hoo gaya nidhiiiii !!!!" .. (*kuch nahi.. acting kar ri hu.. *)
"arrey cat kaa kyaa hogaa??? !!"....... (* u still dun know the difference b/w left n right hand?? nursery me fail hue thee??
"tu zindaa hee?? ine bade accident k baad??!"(* nahii mera bhoot tere samne kathaak kar raha he idiot*)

"tujhe buss nahi dikhii" (* nahi chuiya he naa??? bhari sadak pe kaha se dikhegii *)
"how were u taken to the hospital" .. (* i din know its so imp to know that... oops did u forget to ask abt my health *)
"teri gadi ka kya hua?? insured thi naa??" (* haan fir meri health nahi meri gadi ki health..u .. u.. huh *)
"teri gadi skit hui??ki tune bus ko nahi dekhaa??" (* which word of " i dun remember a thing.. i hav a memory loss ofthose 15 minutes" didnt make sense to u?? *)

the worst thing is.. im a person who laughs on every silly lil thing.. giggling is the best thing i do .. n every time i do that.. im like ouch ouch ouch.. it hurts.. doctor ne hasne se mana kia he.. .. seriously.. break ne bone of ur body.. bud dun u dare.. damage ur backbone.. or ne bone related to ur over all posture.. acollar bone n its functions .. i can write abt that for ages.. from the time u get up in the morning u use it for gettin out of ur bed.. till the the time u go bak to ur bed.. to lie down n sleep u use it......... from giggling to crying.. from talking to singing .. eeverything makes it move.. n that hurtsss :D. dun brake it !! :D .. every moment of the recovery period hurts like hell !! :| :):)

longg post again.. byee byee..
winamp is playin the song ...ON TOP OF THE WORLD... By the carpenters ...the carpenters were around in 1960s-1980s .. wonderful band...

I LOVEE THIS SONG :) .. LYRICS...

Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

wow lovely :) .. chalo.. i g2g.. loads to b done ...
bye takecare....
miss mee :)
nidhi

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

poems.. wonderful poems.... :)



The mind can accept any boundary anywhere.
But the reality is that,
by its very nature,
existence cannot have any boundary,
because what will be beyond the boundary - again another sky.
That's why I'm saying skies upon skies are available for your flight.
Don't be content easily.
Those who remain content easily remain small:
small are their joys,
small are their ecstasies,
small are their silences,
small is their being.
But there is no need!
This smallness is your own imposition upon your freedom,
upon your unlimited possibilities,
upon your unlimited potential..


Soneone left this offliner on my YM... i dunno... who.. but well written.. im still confused lil after readin em .. but wonderful lines :)

another gud poem i came across on
zarines blog:) nice lines ..

It's cold out there.
Take a flight,into the night
A dark,endless expanse of a cold unknown future
To stop and look behind
Is to bask oneself in the false glow of comfort

Comfort which arose from the warmth
Of all those who loved and cared to smile at you
False, as gone are all of them
With you just gazing at the blank emptiness...

Look ahead with a decisive purpose
To move on and take it as it comes
But when will the hope of having
Someone who shares the vision die..?

As life seems like a prose
Like a poem which doesnt rhyme
A tree which hasnt seen the spring
A leaf waiting to touch its ground ..

I fly off....into the dark,the unknown.....
But its cold out there..
The warmth beckons me back
But what shall I choose to have
A hope which has no future,
Or a future which has no hope?


.. n in reply johnny boy left the following lines...

Just like a life that waits to greet the end,
Mine rises to meet the unknown,
When your mind flees to the crecvices dark,
I seek the answer that you fear,

When the roads to bliss,
Lead to a path youre scared to walk down,
My calm seeks a stormy coast,
Like your strorm seeks a dove

Or maybe it's just a candle,
Where I seek the burning flame,
But would you know my darkness
When you seek someone to blame?


iv just one word to say ... wow !!

buhbueee..
got a looot 2 studyy...
ciao
tc
nidhi