I'm all alone .. The rooms are getting smaller .. :(

as we go on we'll remember..
all the times we .. had together..
and as out lives change..come what ever..
we will still be..
F.R.I.E.N.D.S F.O.R.E.V.E.R ..

I remember my first day at school ,I was 4 then. I wasnt a cry baby.. but as my mom n dad dropped me n I saw them leaving.. I remember I was in tears .. crying out loud.. and there stood Carmel Convent.. one of the biggest schools of my city.. welcoming me with open arms.. sister took me to her office and gave me some sweets to eat.. but tht didnt stop me from crying .. then I was given an identity card.. stapled with my handkerchief to my bottle green tunic.. :) that cudnt have stopped Me from cryin either.. :| .. then some nun took me to the class. Now .. I was given some other section .. but as she left me in front of the class n left.. I began to run with all my might towards the end of the long corridor thinking id see my parents.. but my loud cry was audible to the class teacher of K-1/B and she called me in.. and made me sit next to the most beautiful and the most adorable girl I have ever known :) Mridu :) well she cudnt stop me from cryin either.. I dun remember what happened after that.. but all I know.. is that we started to talk.. and then u know how I get indulged in it :D ..

we had many things in common .. and many nt so common.. after all how can u compare a dainty thing and an savage from texas :D .. I was amongst the most talkative and most naught fellow of the class.. and she was just the opposite. Id play on the slide and keep falling and hurting myself. And shed be some where on the the swing or seesaw some where playing some role play kinda game :) ;) :D.. she was cute and sweet and I was tomboyish.. ugly Id cal my self.. :D .. thanks to 4 brothers and just 1 sis (joint family u see) .. :) but more than that .. we had some things in common that not all best friends have .. we shared same birth day :) we were almost neighbours .. we were always put in the same section.. our bua ji were also friends. She was also semi lucknowite .. we were together at school and many a times even after that. Both typical taurens :) so pat-ti bahut hai :) .. my mom made spicy food. Which she cudnt eat, and I liked her lunch .. so her mom wud cook for me as well :) lolz.. that explains y I was soo chubby during my school days.. I remember those those hours in the ground .. sitting and talking during lunch time and free periods :) .. and then we both learnt karate together at school.. hey did u all know? Im karate senior brown belt :D.. just 1 belt behind black :D. so u see we have spent 14 years of our lives together ..both good and bad. There was one time when she broke her hand. And I carried her bag for her, I wrote notes for her. I cant even count how many birthdays we have celebrated together..the problem was if we celebrated bdays at our own palces then we both wud miss each others bdays.. so either we celebrated it together or i'd celebrate it in the afternoon and she in the evening :) ..

Then 9th standard we wre shuffled and we got into different sections .. but there I made friends with some really naughty girls. And the next year was 10th .. so literally our 9thCs notorious fellows were shuffled again so that we wud perform well in 10th standard and I was sent to 10thB.. bak with mridu .. and then came snigdha and garima.. new admissions and we four were the bestum best frnz :) .. and then 11th .. I took PCM & Computer Science .. and Mridu took Commerce & computer science.. so we still had 2-3 lectures together.. :) thank u God for that mercy .. and then me and snigdha left school in 12th .. thats a long story again.. but u were still in touch.. hamesha.. like we never parted at all :)

i remember after 12th standard.. I was planning to join DAVV and she was goin to pune for her Bcom .. and I was too lazy to buy that autograph diary .. and get it signed from my frnz.. I got her autograph first.. what shocked me was.. out of the 100s of autograph diaries at archies.. she and me had bought the same kinda piece.. exactly same ditto :D.. and I dun remember how many times such a thing has happened :) .. same to same thing.. like twins .. :)

well she didnt leave for pune .. and I didnt leave for DAVV .. thankx dads.. both her and mine :| newayz.. so we wre still in touch .. a few days bak.. I was @ her place. And i opened some diary .. it had a cutie Mickey mouse and fido dido book mark and some stickers made by some kid.. with crayons and pencil.. I being so interested in drawing and painting .. was havin a look at it and smiling and making faces.. and she came in.. and when she saw me and my dazed face .. she was like.. tujhe ye kaha se mila.. I said .. yahi pada hua thaa.. and I asked her .. ye tumne banaya hai? And what came next amazed me.. she said pagal hai kyaa? Ye tune banaya thaa.. mujhe tu kitni saare cartoons bana ke deti thii ..hool gai kyaa? (yess i had forgotten that thing or rather thing's') n was like almost in tears .. is it? Sach me? I made this.. and u still have it with u.. u have kept me and my stupid innocent gifts like treasure.. :)

and after almost 18 years of togetherness.. comes the parting .. mridu left for her higher studies.. banglore.. alliance .. and .. believe me.. im sucha freak.. It didnt click me that when ill meet her today.. ill meet her .. may b for the last time.. I mean.. I dunno where ill end up.. and when will I meet her next.. I was so occupied in my own world and my own life that past 3 days .. even though I had been calling her.. talking to her.. but it never clicked me that after this parting.. our lives will be full of uncertainties.. I had to meet her @ 5pm. But me.. im suchaa freak.. I reached her place @ 5:35pm.. u see now even that 35 mins late thing is killing me.. earlier I made her wait for hours.. n then for some reason I had to go bak home.. then I came bak at 6:45pm.. and those last 45 mins with her.. frankly speaking.. I still cant breathe easy.. feeling suffocated.. she is gone.. while coming back from her place.. I realized that in that uneasy state of mind.. I forgot that I took my digi with me.. and called her while I was half way home.. told her that ill miss her soo much .. and that I wanted to come back to her place and click a few pics.. and cud she say no.. even though she had to leave in 15mins.. .. the traffic was sick.. but managed to reach her place in 10 mins.. and took some pics.. Wanted to cry out loud.. but didnt..

ill miss u mridu.. :(( :(( :((

all my old frnz gone.. anu gone.. snigdha gone.. mridu gone.. what will I do now?? Im all alone :(( ill miss u sweety,.. Plz ill make the blog for u.. ill decorate it.. ill do all that I can.. but I want u to update it.. I want u to write about what all u did.. what all went on.. everything.. I want it to be like ur diary.. so that no matter what happens I ccan still hear u .. the way I heard .. when we talked endlessly on phone..

I havent seen a friendship as pure as urs.. I swear to god on that.. n ill miss u .. :((

i cant be mean.. i want to see u fly like a bird.. progress with leaps and bounds .. may God bless u with all the good and wondreful thing that u deserve :) ..

i dunno where ill be after 1 year.. HCL Tech or some good college for management.. but where ever ill be.. one thing is for sure.. this one year without u my frnd will be hard to spend.. even though we didnt meet much ..but we were in contact thru phone.. and its was like i knew that i have mridu some where in the city .. in my reach.. whome i can count on .. ne time.. at any hour.. all i know is.. ill be missin u .. ur one person who has given me love and unconditional support and friendship.. in return to wht i gave.. how offen do u find sucha frnd.. who gives u more than u give him/her. i wonder if ill ever find sucha frnd.. who'd care for me so much.. :|

:( this 1 year will me hard to spend.. and i have no idea what life holds for me after that :|

but as i always say.. the best thing God has gifted us with .. is the the ablility to move on.. no matter how much we want to cling to our past.. no matter how much we try to stay with our memories .. life goes on.. sun still rises in the east and sets in the west.. earth still rotates around the sun.. and ppl still come and leave.. insaan koshish kare ya naa kare.. come what may.. no matter how adverse the situations n difficult life gets.. "aadat padh hi jati hai" insaan "aadat bana leta hai" .. and he gets up and moves on.. broken hearted.. or without heart .. :|

theres a place in my heart ..
with ur name etched deep..
a sweet special place..
where my memories i keep..

i lock it up tightly..
at the end of each day..
i hold then securly..
and put them away..

each morning im awaken..
to open it once more..
i find them secure..
with palce for still more..

if i love to one hundred..
each day may i find..
atleast one new memory..
and none left behind..

ill miss u :(
:((
urs .. forever..
nidhi

Three Things!!

ok.. first neetie.. then mitu .. n now seetha.. my blog has been multi tagged with the "three things" virus :)

so after soo many requests... comes the "three things about" " princess nidhi" post :) he he kiddin :)

but first.. it was suchaa long post.. n took soo much time to edit.. :P .. but it was worth it.. i found out so much about myself.. each line i edited.. made me smile :)

thankx ppl :)

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1.Nidhi
2.Gudia
3.Only two no other.. PAGAL.. my frnz call me.. most of em :D ..

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

Had many.. the only ones i remember r..

1.Nidhi______
2.Angel_nidhi
3.Angilla_carter (this one ..i used when I was a big nick carter fan .. during school days.. some times I still use it :D )

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

I'm no babe, but there are things about myself that I like.

1.My hair.. straight .. thick .. long (though nt very long) n yess the color is nt black. Nt brown.. its natural burgundy :D he he
2.My eyes.. big and I like the color .. katthie he he
3.Dunno.. yeah may be.. my flexible face.. I can make all kinds of faces.. funny ..ugly .. cutie.. he he :) one for every occasion :D


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1.My height.. I wanted to be atleast 5'5'' .. but thankx to my mom.. :) im nt :D
2.Broad boned.. some times I feel how nice it wud have been if wud have been narrow boned.. the problem with broad boned structure is.. no matter how much u shed ur weight.. ull still look like u have.. some extra pounds.. chubby .. I've been dieting ALL MYLIFE :|
3.My gait(here im like u seetha :P ) A times my frnz tell me.. nidhi .. stop being so tomboyish !! :D..

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

Lets see..

1.Positive n Bold Attitude.. thankx to both mom n dads sides..
2.Short temper.. is also what I have got in heritage.. thankx to both mom's n pa's sides.. again.. something im not proud of.. been tryin all my life to control it.. now id say I have controlled it.. say abt 45% :D..
3.Cultural.. yet broad minded.. Cultural.. thankx to mom.. broad minded.. pa's side :D.. n yess .. most important.. Faith in god and faith in self..

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

Nothing.. or no .. wait.. let me see..

1.Im sacred of loosing my family.. I totally agree with neetie. Even a thought of the moment when I'll leave my family.. my home.. my belongings.. kills me.. suffocates me.. :(
2.Loosing my near n dear ones.. friends n well wishers.. whom im attached to.. a times i cry soo much thinkin abt the day ill leave bhopal.. for studies.. or job.. what will I do without my frnz.. ppl who take my responsibility.. more than I take myself.
3.Using my heart.. im scared of heart aches.. I think this is some phyco problem im suffering with.. when my frnz r busy getting in and out of relationships.. I prefer stayin away from all this.. I dunno y I have grown this attitude .. may b after anu's episode.. .. I dunno.. Im just too scared..

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

Well..

1.A computer with internet.. mustum must..
2.My terrace :)
3.Lots of laughter.. smiles.. water.. some food.. n yess.. lotsaaaa sleep.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1.Im wear 5 rings :) all advised by some jodshi or the other.. 1 diamond, 1 emerald, 1 moon stone, 1 plain gold ring and 1 pearl :D.. there have been times pl have recognised me with my rings.. nidhi.. vo khoob saari anguthiyo wali naa :P
2.Lolz.. for a change im wearing a blue cutie.. salwar kameez abhi :D ..
3.A cluther that's holdin my hair .. shabby knot :D

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

Awww .. I dunno.. I dun wanna think abt it either.. :| .. but still.. lemme see .. I think understanding + good friendship.. defines love :) so what I want is..

1.Im too loyal.. to all my near n dear ones.. n believe me.. most of the time I dun get it in return.. n it makes me feel bad.. so if he can give me same or even more loyalty in return .. unlike the ppl around me..
2.Love.. unconditionally.. esp when I deserve it the least.. coz that's when I need it the most :)
3.Understanding.. and above all he must have full faith in me.. rather we should have full faith in each other..

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):

Guess which one is the lie.

1.Im happy.. very happy .. \:)/
2.I love life.. even though it screws me most of the times.. :D
3.Im still a kid .. who needs ppl to take care of her.. he he

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

Hehe he !! :D .. lets see.. nahi I cant cant see.. :D .. kiddin =)) .. Id rather go for dil ka accha baccha.. n yess attitude.. n good sense of humor.. n yess yep one more thing.. shuld have ears.. to hear me :D

1.Cute Smile ..hmm baby faced may be .
2.Height.. should be tall ..
3.Hair.. that matters the most I must say:D .. smart hair cut makes a big difference he he..

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1.Get CAT2005 ..paper form some where :D .. or no wait.. who needs CAT? who is the richest NRI .. b/w 22-25 years of age?? ill get married to him right away.. saari tension over.. hehe LN Mittal ka koi son nahi hai naa?
2.Find what my future holds for me..
3."Mans world naa".. I want to find that "MAN" n kill him .. :(( I dun understand.. what made him bring this education.. society.. standards.. work.. n all those "most important" ranked terms in life.. what was wrong in life as nomads or as farmers.. kyaa yaar.. khoob masti karte.. soote.. ghumte firte .. ash hoti.. kaha competitive world khada kar diaa.. :|

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:

1.ANIMATION :).. hey u all.. the future cartoons will be made my mee.. be prepred .. ur kids r gonna watch all that crap I make :) .. did I hear some one say.. baccho pe bura asar padega =))
2.Management.. cool MBA.. ;)
3.Computer Science Engineer .. im almost one..

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

Y just 3?? SOTC World Tour packages arnt all that costly .. :D.. khul jaaaa sim sim

1.Pink Sands Beach, Bahamas..Anse Source d'Argent, Seychelles.. or may be.. The Maldives Islands ..ya fir..Culebra Island, Puerto Rico .. or may be all the above :D
2.Moon .. or venus .. it will be fun to see the world from an angle .. from where no one else can see you :)
3.Swidzerland.. need i mention the reason y??

THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE:

Oh My GOD !! THREEEE !! what !! ppl.. this country is begging for mercy !! I dun think mother India..dharti maa can bare the weight ne more.. what.. u want India to drown.. sink.. into Indian ocean or what??? .. newayz.. let me think abt the names .. baki ill have to talk abt the names n the number with my hubby :))

Well I know 1 thing is for sure.. the names will start with the last few letters of the series.. s..t..u..v..w..x..y..z .. so that my kids give vivas in peace.. :) so..

1.Siddharth / Siddhanth .. aka Sid
2.Vishesh aka Vishu :D
3.Umang.. Zeenath.. Zarine.. hehe

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

18 til' i die he he ..

1.Remove poverty .. uplift the status of women in society.. remove the word called society in society ..oops.. how will i do that? :|
2.Experence what true love. is.. if at all there is..
3.Give all the reasons to mom dad .. rachit .. n my loved ones.. to make them smile.. even when im gone.. :)

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:

Almost all the blogs have been infected by this virus.. the blogs uninfected will now get the infection.. :P told ya.. protect ur bolg.. abb bhugtoo :P

1.Rohit J
2 Rohit K Broo
3.Parag

Hey u all... better jot down abt ur self.. ok.. its fun really.. sach me :| :) .. n yess RK Bhai.. ill follow ur book tag virus soon.. now that i have read a few more books.. besides those highschool novels.. :D

What is ability...

Ability is to look at a blank page,

And create a poem.

Ability is to stare into the eyes of fear,

And come out stronger because of it.

Ability is to walk into a room of strangers,

And come out with friends.

Ability is to admit you are wrong,

When you are wrong.

Ability is to get back up,

When you fall down.

Ability is to believe,

When everything seems lost.

Ability - a simple word, with a complex meaning.

For many, ability is never found, but for all ability is within.

Ability stares everyone in the face at one time or another.

Whether your ability is how well you shoot hoops,

How well you flip at dancing,

How smart you are at school.

You have ability.

For some, ability is lost by never trying.

Whether never trying to shoot one more time,

Never trying to bend a little more,

Or never trying to score higher in school.

Ability is within.

Ability is yours.
source parags blog

look i told u all naaaa im nt stupid.. NOW HERES THE PROOF :))

Your Score Summary

Overall, you scored as follows:



72% scored higher (more stupid),
5% scored the same, and
23% scored lower (less stupid).

What does this mean? You are 23% stupid. This means...

You are far from stupid. Congrats on a great accomplishment!

FRIENDS FOR LIFE !!!

In this world things come and go.
With life's twists and turns
it's hard to determine what the future may hold.
The only real guarantee is nothing stays the same,
and least when we expect it our lives are changed.


If by some chance
We happen to lose touch
Please know that I'll be
Thinking of you and missing you very much.


So before today ends
I wanted to say
I'm thankful that we're friends
Yesterday & today.


With time and good fortune on our side
I hope that we see forever and stay
FRIENDS FOR LIFE!

MUUHAAAHAAAAAHAAA !!!

Your Score Summary

Overall, you scored as follows:
19% scored higher (more computer geeky),
1% scored the same, and
80% scored lower (less geeky).

Compared to those in the same age group as you:
18% scored higher (more computer geeky),
1% scored the same, and
81% scored lower (less geeky).

What does this mean? Your computer geekiness is:
High-Level Computer Geek. All of those below you are envious of you! (...Well perhaps not the cool people)

Whats the definition of perfect?

Well, its been really long .. since I posted some thing the I wrote.. all copy paste stuff ull find here these days : | .. so here I am.. Living a so called perfect life .. perfect.. whats the definition perfect? I will be one since we shifted to our new home.. since then mom n me have been working on the garden .. its a really small one though .. but maintaining one is not as easy as it seems. I remember when I was a kid.. I was born n brought up in a joint family, me with 4 of my brothers in that old big house, played all day n that lawn, n now when every I visit that house, that lawn and the trees remind me of my childhood days. We had a guava tree and we'd climb it and play there. And make use of that weak coconut rope and make a swing out of it and swing on that tree all day. Need i mention.. I ,being the only sister was fooled every time. When ever they knew that the rope was about to break , I was offered the swing and the next is something for sure .. chubby nidhi ..on the ground he he, otherwise I'd help my cusions swing, pushing them, pulling them n a times kicking them : D.. that house is not very far away form this house htough .. but life isnt the same.. if im free my brothers r'nt .. when they r free im nt.newayzz..

We even had a mango tree in the garden, which still stands there with all its might. Now I have stories associated with it as well. When we played cricket and badminton our shuttle/ball would reach on top of our neighbors shade. And we'd climb the boundary wall, I was always advised to sit on the 6 feet tall wall quietly with the support of the mango tree. But no! how can that be? Bhaaiyo ki kaise sun lu?? And then I have records of falling for top of the wall.. :D .. n then some body would come down from the wall and pick me up in the arms and take me to dadi ji, n she wud help me with her ointments and heater. He he : ) ..

Oops I digressed form the topic.. so I was telling about a perfect day ! so these days I get up early in the morning and sit id the lawn , which after my moms and a lil bit of my hard work is lush green. Early morning when the sun is about to rise, and when there’s dew all over the flowers and grass. Its wonderful :) .. and then I make tea for mom n dad. Need I mention? Im really good at it : D .. so if nidhi doesn't join mba/hcl she can at least open a chai ki dukan in the suburbs of all the cities of India .. bad joke :-s .. now I get enough time watch TV, listen to music and sit on computer all day :) I also study for cat a bit, and yess the essential training which im trying my level best to "fake" will start from tomm or day after. Uupar wale y dun u give me some more time to live this perfect life??

Did I tell u all? its really a pleasant weather here at Bhopal since last one week. Its cloudy from morning till noon and then again at about 3pm it gets cloudy and its not all that hot any more. Monsoons r coming, it even rained a bit yesterday. And then in the morning at about 3am, it rains every day : ) .. and its suchaaa bliss to hear birds chirping and the 'sondhi' smell of bhigi mitti :)



I know all of us enjoy the moonlit nights dun we? Well did u all get time to enjoy the moon lately?aah haan.. for last 3 days im doing that as well. From my balcony, its really a wonder to see rings around the moon, day before yesterday there were 2 of them. Aura they call it :) its really so pleasant to sit out and just look.. and atimes gawk at the moon :) he he

Now this takes me back to my old house and memories.. There papa took me to the terrace n told me stories n facts about moon .. planets and stars, and my brother ankit would ask stupid questions about them as though he was the next space scientist !! :D those days were so much fun.. n now I m here .. ankit .. papa.. no body around :) except my brother who atimes comes up to ask me.. if im coming down stairs to watch "the great Indian comedy show" .. he he .. rachit and me .. watch all the comedy stupid series together.. he hates to laugh alone .. and so do i.. I mostly watch pogo with him :D he he .. n when we laugh .. u can hear us even if ur 2 blocks away from our home :D ..

Now the most important thing that makes my day perfect.. im spending all day with mom .. after so long .. nahi to mostly I dun get much time college ghar CL dinner computer some studies sleep :( .. so its really nice to help her with the lil that I can :) .. my room is looks clean .. not many books around me.. taunting me ridiculing me deriding me and making me ashamed of myself.. so its really pleasant spending time in here :) .. and yess off course .. 4 hours sleep during the day.. thats the best way of treating yourself..!!n im doin that!!

So all day .. either im spending time with me myself or with mom d best :) life cant be better :) enjoyin and my holidays .. bus abb yehi kwaahish hai.. God gimmy all the ways to fake my industrial training .. I happy in here plz plz plz ..

Bye all..
I hope this post wasn't the opposite of the title :)
U all take care
N be good :)
nidhi

Unstoppable !!

They appear as giants, driven to achieve.
Not of the ordinary fabric weaved.
When faced with adversity and obstacles too,
They refused to be stopped, continue to barrel through.

What keeps them going, what holds them on track,
When so many others are wont to turn back?
How are they different? What sets them apart?
Could I barrel through, too, with such strength in my heart?

The truth is so simple, it's hard to admit it.
They're not lucky or blessed or specially gifted.
Like anyone else, they too have doubts and fears,
But the difference with them, is how they live their years.

They live with purpose, a quest that gives rise
To pursuing what counts with no compromise.
Burning with passion, turning work into love,
Enlisting support from around and above.

The whole is envisioned with the end in mind,
Carefully planned continuously refined.
When challenges loom, and seem to prevail
They chart a new course, alter their sail.

They cling to their faith, the vision persists
They simple will not cease or desist.
Call them stubborn, they refuse to give in
They persist, preserve - and yes, they do win.

If you will pursue the dream of your heart
And follow their path, don't wait to start
You'll realize your dreams, break through all obstacles!
And become as they are, triumphant - Unstoppable!

-Cynthia Kersey, Unstoppable

COUNT REACHED ..

:D ... y is it that only i celebrate every 1000 counts on my blog in this blogosphere ? hee hee

The Journey Of The SOUL .. :)

For children everywhere who wonder about GOD and his creation. Here is the eternal, universal story that tells of the love expressed in every faith.

in the heart of every child is the seed of love and innocent longing to know about God. May this story tell you on a journey of exploration; a discovery of truth in all its simple wonder and delight.

May every child, of every race and faith, find inspiration in these pages- an insight into origins, the long journey of life, and the wonderful possibility of finding our way back to our common home.

Long long ago in the beginning, before even time began... there was God and nothing but God. There were no skies or planets, suns, moons or stars.

There were no people or animals or birds or trees. There was absolutely nothing but God...

God was a wondrous ocean of light called love. In this great ocean of God there were millions and millions of drops of light that were all fast asleep.

And because they were asleep they had no idea how magnificent and shinning god was. Each and every drop was tiny part of the great ocean of God. Each little drop of light was called a soul. One if those little drops is you!

After a while God willed a creation. He sent forth a wondrous luminous wave of sound and light from his own being and made the entire creation from it.

He made skies, planets, suns, moons, and stars. He made mountains, valleys and deserts, oceans, lakes, rivers and streams. The creation was majestic and beautiful…but there were no living things in it to enjoy it.



So God decide to put on a play, using his souls as actors, and his new creation as the theatre! God was the director, and He named his play, "Life."

Almost all the souls wanted to be in this show, so God told them they could leave their home in the ocean of light and journey down to be performers in the theatre of creation.

But there were a very few of the little souls that did not want to go at all. They wanted to stay home with lord. But He told even these to go and enjoy being in his play, too.



Then he put a mark on each one of the souls that wanted to stay with Him, and promised them that one day He would send for them and have them brought back to their real home with him.

He told all the other souls that if they ever decide they wanted to come back home again, He would mark them too. One day, through God's boundless grace, He would help them come home too.

The Great Lord gave every soul a costume to wear so that each little drop of light would me dressed to play its part in "Life."

The soul's costume is called a body. Every soul on earth has a body to wear. The length of time a soul wears a certain body and plays that part in "Life," is called a "Lifetime."

Some souls were given the bodies of plants, some were given the bodies of insects and reptiles. The Great Lord gave some souls the bodies of fish and birds. Some souls were given animal bodies...

And some souls were given the most wonderful body of all- human body. With there body costumes on, all the soul drops look different. But underneath their bodies they are still the same little drops of light and love.

We all belong to the same family because we all have the same One Father, God, the Great Lord. We should always be kind, gentle and loving to every living being because a soul lives inside each one.

All the living things that we see in the world can be divided into five groups. If we could see them on a ladder, it would look like this.

Humans on the top of the step because we are able to understand that we are soul drops, not just actors. And because of the wonderful secret you'll discover...

Animals on the fourth step. They are lower than humans because they are not able to realize that they are soul drops.

Birds on the third step. Though they are free to fly, they are less clever than animals.

Fish, reptiles, insects and worms are on the second step. They are less clever than birds.

Plants are down at the bottom. They are the lowest form of life. They cannot think and are rooted to one place.



The soul that makes the body alive, and able to jump and run and swim and fly! When the soul's part in the play is finished, the soul leaves the body costume. Then the body dies, and no longer lives, breathes and moves.

But the soul never dies! Your soul is radiant drop of God, so the real you lives Forever!

Do you know what happens to the soul after it leaves the body costume? It begins a new life in a new body! It is given a new costume and another play to play on the stage of creation! This is called Birth.



A soul can be born as any living being. One lifetime you may play the part of an apple tree. In another lifetime you might were the costume of a tiger or a swordfish. Or you might play role of an Indian boy... or an American girl.

It pleases the great lord to see each being cheerfully accept whichever role He has given it to play in "Life."

The play of "Life" is like a great circle. The soul actors journey round and round, from body to body, costume to costume, playing different roles, for millions and millions of lifetimes.



God made his play seem very real, so his souls completely forget that they are just actors playing parts. Sometimes they worry about what has happened and what will happen in "Life." But God never worries about what happens because He is the director, and He knows that "Life" is just a play.

God is happy to see his play beautifully performed by his souls. So enjoy his show! Be happy and grateful foe everything that happens to you in the play. And whenever a scene is sad or hard, remember you are only plying a part. The real you is your soul, a perfect luminous drop of God himself, so his love, power and greatness are all within you!

Talk to God. Feel Him shining inside you, loving you and giving you all the strength you need to play the part He gave you, courageously and well. This is called faith in God.

If you will always remember Him and have faith in him, you will be happy inside yourself, no matter what happens in his play of "Life."



When the Lord whats one of his souls to come back home, He makes that person feel lonely deep inside. Like something is missing. This is the great Lord's special way of reminding the soul that the real home is not in this world, but back in the Ocean Of Light.



The reason the human body is so special is that its the only body costume in which the soul can leave Gods play for ever and return home.

God has placed an invisible secret door in every human being! This secret door opens onto a hidden path that leads the soul back through the many magical lands to the resplendent ocean of God.

And just as He promised He would in the very beginning, God sends His own Great power, mercy and love down into our world to find the marked soul drops and bring them back home.

This great power is called a TRUE living Master and lives inside a human body that looks like yours and mine.

But actually the Living Master is wondrous Wave of Gods being, who comes into the world only to gather souls from the shadow of "life" and take them back home. These souls are attracted to Him like bees to honey.



The Living Master tells us all about our real home and fills us with love for God.

When a person really wants to return to the great Ocean Of Light, the Master teaches him how to do so. He touches that soul with His own soul and an everlasting bond of love forms between them.

He makes faithful promise to take the soul back home.

He shows that person how to close his eyes, sit very still, and lovingly remember the great lord. This makes him forget all about his part in the play for a while.



His mind becomes so peaceful and quiet that he is able to hear the wondrous waves of sound and see the shining light of the stream that flows all the way back to the ocean of the Lord.

One day the secret door opens, revealing the hidden path, within! Thrilled, the soul steps across the threshold into the starry sky of an amazing new world!



Each day, the soul follows the ringing radiant Stream Of Sound and Light further and further up the hidden path.

And then, in this refulgent realm, something wonderful happens! The soul beholds a stunning and magnificent sight!



The Masters dazzling Form, made of nothing… but the stream of Sound and Light! Dancing with joy, the soul dives in and is carried towards its home in the powerful swift current of masters Love.



This hidden path leads the Master and the soul through many marvelous and magical lands, until al last, they round the final bend and look up to see...



Off in the distance...
The welcoming lights of Home!
Overflowing with love and longing for God,
The soul rushes on, until it arrives on the very doorstep of God, Himself.
And then..



In a flash of light the door opens!
And the Master lifts the soul drop back up into the ocean of light,
Where it lives in happiness, peace and bliss
Of the Great Lord God
Forever and ever...

comming up next .. the journey of soul :)

this is a lil sweeeeetest boook i have ver read.. now dont get me wrong.. its not philosophical stuff.. nope not at all.. its acctually a book writtn by victoria jones.. for kids .. to make them understnd.. the whole concept of living a cheerful life... nutshell..

For children everywhere who wonder about GOD and his creation. Here is the eternal, universal story that tells of the love expressed in every faith.

in the heart of every child is the seed of love and innocent longing to know about God. May this story tell you on a journey of exploration; a discovery of truth in all its simple wonder and delight.

May every child, of every race and faith, find inspiration in these pages- an insight into origins, the long journey of life, and the wonderful possibility of finding our way back to our common home.


sounds boring???
have a look at this colourful book and its beautiful words.. null fall in love with it..

now i dont knw y i have typed the whole book.. :D .. well it belongs to knushboo's didi.. n it has been with me for abt an year now.. n i treasure it... :) .. im sure .. if this book stays with me.. if she forgets to take it back from me (i hope ur readin this khushboo) then ill make my kids read it :) :P :D .. sacchii ...

in this life.. when we have got so much involved in work.. tentions.. competitions and stuff.. who gets time to think abt the crude reality that we'r nt here for ever .. n we must make our present perfect.. and happy .. n nt think abt the future n forget abt the present.. coz like this we dont stay in the present.. and live with dreams abt the future.. n do nothin with our life ... :| ...

this book surely makes u look at the life with a different view.. :)

well i dint get the text in the book on net.. o i typed it.. :) n will post it on the blog tomm withsome really nice pics in the book :)

chalo i hope u alol find some time.. say bat 20mins to read the article that ill posthere tomm :)

byeeeeee
tc
nidhi

:)) can u believe this.. im 90% nerd !!! :D .. im nott !!! they advised me to join MIT !! Hee hee ..USA here i come :)

10% scored higher (more nerdy), and
90% scored lower (less nerdy).

What does this mean? Your nerdiness is:

Supreme Nerd. Apply for a professorship at MIT now!!!.

Spoiling my self.. lts like a blisss .. :) lolz

Today.. I did every thing that I like to do.. :D .. relaxed all day.. after chooo long.. was online for almost all day... searchin the web.. reading.. surfin.. desingin my blog.. n seethas : ) .. chattin .. : ) heeh hee was fun : ) .. dint have my mom telling me to study and not to waste time.. or my brother.. botherin me with the loud music he plays while I m studin.. infact I was enjoyin it today : ).. over all.. was a JHAKKAASS type of a day : )
Lets see what makes me feel so gud abt last 2days ???

1. Sleeeeeping : )
Yesturday after givin my exam I slept at abt 3:30pm.. got up at 6:00pm .. n again slept at 8:30 some thing… and then got up at like .. 11:30am this morning.. :D even though I was up for 1 hour at night.. online.. but lets nt consider that :D... : ) after recallin soo much my conclusion is that I slept for abt 18hrs in last 33 hrs.. :D isint that fun :D .. well this is not beauty sleep.. its put-on sleep.. :D im getting golu day by day.. :D sum one tell me some way to reduce .. without doing much.. :D.. hee hee kiddin : )

2. Eating.. :D
yesterday mom made some delicious stuff.. and today I had a mango shake in the morning.. then cold coffee.. (both my favs)... the I had a pizza 1 hr back.. :D

3. Exam..
well well.. guess what?? 9th I had my computer networks paper.. n as u all know.. its supposed to be a paper heavily loaded with numericals.. Something that students like me hate the most.. but .. to our surprise.. against the papers that the university has been coming up with in the past few dayz rather last few years... we were all stunned to see only 2 “STUPID” numericals in the paper.. and rest of it was “STUPID” theory.. :D gud enough for me :D.. my exam went ..”SUPERB” .. : ) .. n my next paper is on 16.. so I have all rights to make masti :D..

4. CAT Prep
well finally .. now that im free from the BE stuff.. I have plenty of time.. to get down and study real hard.. I was waiting for this day for soo long.. when ill have plenty of time and wont have ne project.. presentation.. test.. etc to bug me.. or get me off the track… CAT is what I want to.. n im gonna concentrate upon .. for the next few months.. so I went to CL today.. and Darpan Sir se baaten karne k baad .. im all set.. on the track !! CAT HERE I COME !!

5. Blogspot’s beauty.. REDEFINED :D
hey how did u guys like my blog?? N I have also decorated seetha’s blog. Rnt the 2 spots looking cute : ) .. I think hers is looking better than mine : ) .. but now that I have her password.. I can switch to tht template ne time.. :D .. seetha has promised to send me a book as a gift for the decoration I did for her :D .. in waitin for that vilayati book to arrive my desh :D hee hee....both of us bugged each other choo much today… hee hee but it was fun : )

6. Online 24/7
my DSL plan was changed to some golden plan .. courtesy ..by bro..and that plan was really gold.. I mean expensive.. very very expensive.. but its back to unlimited hours again.. :D hee hee .. that explains y Im soo much online since last 1-2 weeks…

7. Letter
aaj I rote a letter to my bua.. she is suchhaaaa darling : ) .. acc she happened to call me on mothers day.. n when I wished her.. she was like.. sad.. Udayan & Utkarsh dint wish her .. : | .. so I promised her to send her a card and gift .. n loook at me.. im sucha… freak.. im postin her the stuff now : | .. after abt a month.. but it was fun… got a card for her.. wrote a letter.. and got dadi ji’s pics developed and .. posted it to her in the evening : ) .. even got card for papa.. did u all know..19th june is FATHERS DAY .. dun forget to wish ur fathers on that day ok? ; ) : )

8. Competition master
got the users name and p/w of udayan.. hee hee now im a registered member of that site.. it’s a gud resource of information .. read a lott abt budget today :D ..

9. Unstoppable
This is a book by Kersey.. din hear a lot abt it.. but got it issued from library today.. im all set to sink into the bed n surf through the pages of the book : ) .. it says.. “Unstoppable.. is a must-read for any one who wants to live a life where you grow until you go” .. now either this book is nt so good.. n that’s y I didn’t hear abt it.. or its good n ppl have already read it.. n I was under hibernation.. both the ways I have the right t read it and find it out myself :D

im all tired now..gotta go … after reading this stupid post im sure.. who ever survived to read this word.. must be almost sleepin :D.. hey u wake up… :P .. chalo.. im leavin : )

bye ppl…

take care : )
n
be good

nidhi : )

SOME CUTIE CUTIE WORDS... :)

I don't regret the things I have done or the things I have chosen not to do because what ever I've done, I must have done something right because I ended up with you.

A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.

Your beauty leaves me numb : a bed of tears i cry for you. Dreaming of things that will never become. Oh why did have to fall for you ?

The virtue of true love is not finding the perfect person, but loving the imperfect person perfectly. Love dosent have a happy ending, coz it simply dosent end..

If even a day should go by when I don't say I love you, may never a moment go by without you knowing that I do.

If I'm out of time and I could pick one day, one moment and keep it new, of all of the days I have lived I would pick the day I met you.

And I saw the river over which every soul must pass to reach the kingdom of heaven and the name of that river was suffering: and I saw a boat which carries souls across the river and the name of that boat was love.

It is not that i'm afraid to die, it is that if i die who will love you as i do.

It's not enough to have a dream, Unless you're willing to pursue it. It's not enough to know what's right, Unless you're strong enough to do it. It's not enough to learn the truth, Unless you also learn to live it. It's not enough to reach for love, Unless you care enough to give it. Men who are resolved to find a way for themselves will always find opportunities enough; and if they do not find them, they will make them.

There is nothing better than a friend, unless it is a friend with chocolate.

:)

AS I PRAY... : )

When my heart
Is vacant
Is his love still there?
When my mind questions him
Does he weep with despair?
Has he known from my first instant
How my life will turn out…
Does he wait with knowledge patient
Even when I’m filled with doubt?
When I’ve strayed from my path
Did he know I’d eventually come back?
Or was it him all along
Shielding me from evils attack?

Does he stand by and let me feel the pain
Because it makes me stronger?
Is it he that releases the burden just before I
Can’t take it any longer?
Does he hear my lamentations, crying, dying
My mumblings insane?
Is it his unseen arms that hug me
And insist my life’s not lived in vain?

Is he the one who sacrificed his life for me…
The reason I’m here today
My Lord, My Savior, My Father, My Love
Is he here now as I pray?

Well... another beautiful poem i found..online.. :D
i wish i cud write one.. :) ..
i felt it referes to that unknown, someone somewhere philosophy :) .. well i hope i interpreted it right.... but.. on second thoughts.. considering how papa n i m such close buddies..n how he cares for me and loves mee chhooo very much.. i can even dedicate it to papa :) "MY BEST FRIEND" he he :)

tc & smile :)
nidhi

Nostalgia .. and then all of a sudden.. REUNION...

Hey this is a pic i took yesterday.. from a spot near asoka lake view.. well, Bhopal is blessed with a lotttsaa lakes.. and the most beautiful amoungs them is the "Upper Lake" AKA "Bada Talab".. the spot from where i took this pic .. is a place where u can sit for hours.. and u won feel bored.. like in dil chahta hai.. remember that scene where the three sit.. in goa.. and decide they'll meet every year at that place.. yo its a place similar to that.. i have been here many times.. and ITS WORTH IT !! .. :) he he..

well yest snigdha came down from raipur n me,mrida,garima n snigdha .. got together .. after like.. 4 years... well garima ,me n mridu stay here @ bhopal only n snigdha stays at raipur.. me and mridu meet very offen.. but it was after 4 years that all 4 of us were together.. :) .. what was the meeting like?? he he.. well we chatted .. we giggled.. did that daring jehnuma palace thing..( **he he ha ha** )...ate sizzler.. blah blah.. made faces (off course on my siko PJ's :D ) .. n a lottsaa khamoshi too.. hee hee dunno y.. well over all it was really good to meet snigdha.. we'r school time frnz.. after this year.. gawd knows when we'll meet.. :| .. mridu will be leaving for blore this month,for MBA. and next year.. garima will be either @ TCS or doin MBA.. same goes for me.. n subbi.. sure will be at da best institute for MBA. :) .. so u see .. i wonder when we'll meet..

ne ways.. dun get me senti.. menti.. well m gonna meet em again today.. we'r goin to watch a movie.. and then lets c what we do.. he he... :( :| :) i have my exam on 9th.. computer networks.. :| n i gotta study .. BUT WHEN ??? i dunno... my ADA exam was gud.. :) .. now is CN n im really really really scared of numericals.. :|

will study.. :( :) neways that was an update on what i m doin.. n how im "HAVIN FUN" :| :) :D

bye.. tc ..
nidzzzzz

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me .. :-| :-)

When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an Angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind,
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past,
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
...really touching poem.. found it sumwhere on net last night :)