Upon the winds,
Let your sprits take a flight.
Dare to chase your dreams,
Through star search night.
Let hope be your wings,
That lift your sprits high.
Until you can soar above the clouds,
And paint the pastel sky.
for there’s a whisper carried along every breeze,
Reminding you , that your dreams are
Your to seize...
Monday, April 25, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
say it before its too late...
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we
went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with
him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
another girl.
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
"No. I am going to meet a friend."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you'
before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued
till 100 days.200days.
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.
Then one day.
Me: Um, Jin, I .
Jin: What.don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ..you..um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me
the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
one by one. There were many.
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But. lunch passed, dinner passed. and soon the sky was
dark. he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin.
Jin: Here.take this.
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.
Then I shouted.
"Wait."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me.
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say.that I love someone so easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb.and I collapsed to the ground. He
didn't want to say it easily.
How could he..
I felt that.
Maybe he is not the right guy for me.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room. everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that. I saw him on
a street.with another girl.
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
me.as he touched the doll.
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
room, and tears fell.
Why did he gave these to me.
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls.
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,
that. it's going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What..why.
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't
want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then.
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted.
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him.
And after spending two months like a crazy person.
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
count the days. when we were in love.
"One.two. three."
That was how. I started to count the dolls.
"Four hundred and eighty four. four hundred and eighty
five."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly.
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
"I..lo..ve.you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I.love you.
Why didn't I realize that..
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much.
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much.
"Jo.Do you know what today is? We've been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't
say I love you.. Um. since I was too shy. If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.
everyday. till I die. Jo. I love you."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last
minute.
For that. and for that reason. to me. it became
courage. to live a beautiful life..
It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose
someone that you love with your useless pride! Appreciate what you have,
when you have it near you!
His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we
went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with
him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
another girl.
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
"No. I am going to meet a friend."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you'
before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued
till 100 days.200days.
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.
Then one day.
Me: Um, Jin, I .
Jin: What.don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ..you..um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me
the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
one by one. There were many.
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But. lunch passed, dinner passed. and soon the sky was
dark. he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin.
Jin: Here.take this.
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.
Then I shouted.
"Wait."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me.
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say.that I love someone so easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb.and I collapsed to the ground. He
didn't want to say it easily.
How could he..
I felt that.
Maybe he is not the right guy for me.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room. everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that. I saw him on
a street.with another girl.
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
me.as he touched the doll.
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
room, and tears fell.
Why did he gave these to me.
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls.
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,
that. it's going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What..why.
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't
want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then.
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted.
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him.
And after spending two months like a crazy person.
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
count the days. when we were in love.
"One.two. three."
That was how. I started to count the dolls.
"Four hundred and eighty four. four hundred and eighty
five."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly.
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
"I..lo..ve.you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I.love you.
Why didn't I realize that..
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much.
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much.
"Jo.Do you know what today is? We've been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't
say I love you.. Um. since I was too shy. If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.
everyday. till I die. Jo. I love you."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last
minute.
For that. and for that reason. to me. it became
courage. to live a beautiful life..
It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose
someone that you love with your useless pride! Appreciate what you have,
when you have it near you!
Friday, April 22, 2005
True F.R.I.E.N.D.S. are angels !!
Have you ever found a friend who makes your heart glow?
Someone who is wonderful, who you're honored to know,
Someone to laugh with, and sometimes to cry,
Someone who loves you when you don't know why.
Someone who just seems to understand you,
Someone who you love no matter what they do,
Someone who you think of day and night,
Someone who shows up when the time is just right.
Someone who shares all your ups and downs,
Someone you smile with, replacing your frowns,
Someone who appears whenever there is a need,
Surely you must know, God planted that seed.
These seeds God has planted here on earth
Cannot be measured by earthly worth.
They were planted deeply in your friend's heart,
By God's love placed here from the start.
Value those friendships, honor their decisions,
Never try to make their dreams your revisions,
Respect their feelings, never make demands,
Hold their love tightly in your hands.
Never be angry if you don't talk to them each day,
For a heart can be loving even from far away.
Trust in friendship, send a piece of your heart,
This is how friendship was intended from the start.
Hold their memory in your heart and mind,
Continue to love them all the time,
See them for what they really are -
True friends are Angels sent by God from afar!
today i wrote the speech for the farewell that we'r gonna bid our seniors on the 24th this month...before i could complete it ... i had called almost all of my closest buddies in the college.. just one thought of em leaving me... it kills me..what am i without em... no matter how muh v argue.. how much khushboo teases me... no matter how much they eat my head... and bug me... thats where i belong,i've alwayz felt for ppl.. and atimes i'd get "dhoka" from ppl i considered my friends.. who helped me at such times... im my blues.. who made me into a girl like i am today.. who trnsformed me from a painfully arrogant girl to completely affable nidhi.. its em..
today mornin neha jha(one of our class mates)called me up to tell me that i had to come to college tommorrow for the rehersal of the whole thing with the speech... GOD ! shouldnt i be the first person to know that im hosting the show? lolz.. :| not funny... amrita has to sing and khushboo is planning to dance.. (i think that lolz suits here !)..well all our plans r in airs most of the time.. so im sure only ill reach the place :D
so i have been putting down words since then.. and i end up with a real long welcome speech and a sewwt vote of thanks.. rest .. ill leave on neha.i cant imagine even a day w/o talkin to my frnz if i cant meet em.. and puttin dowm words of bye byes.. y?did i murder some one? did i commit some sin? y am i been tortured by making me jot down such words.. its killing me to imagine the day when my juniors will speak such things in front of me...
most of my frnz r from different cities..not bhopal..
some of em have already got through gate ,and somw will(i know "WILL")get through CAT this year... and if not.. then we'll move out and stick to a job for a year before iim calls us :) .. which might take me to noida.. away from em all..
cant things be stable?cant v have ppl around us who really care for us.. for ever around us?y is change so constant?its not even 3 years that i have met em.. and im so much connected to em that.. im feelin so sick to imagine our departure from this place..
remember the song ....
"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
********But when we leave this year we won't be coming back********
*******No more hanging out cause we're on a different track*******
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
la la la la
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on,We remember
All the times we,Had together
And as our lives change,Come whatever
We will still be,Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school(college)?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
:D i have done this before ,when i was in 11th and we gave farewell to out seniors..at that time also i was the one who had to deliver such a speech..but at that time i was upset abt my seniors leavin me.. now i just relised that its a speech address my seniors and not me or my frns... we still have one year to go..
feelin better that its not me who's gonna cry.. its gonna be them .AND I DONT MIND SEEING THEM CRY !! HE HE HA HA HA ! BAHUT RULAYA THA NAAA HUM SABKO.. ABB KUDH ROO BETAAA !! :D
chalo ne wayz...
i g2g..
enough of bules..im gonna go and shop..moms not home.. n i got cash in my hands.. orders from pa..GO AND SHOP !!meri behin ki shaadi hai !!
:| ... AMRITA..!BABES.. IF I DONT GET INTO MBA(I WILL) THEN UR NOT DOIN MTECH EITHER ! ALTEAST UNTILL IIMS CALL ME..I WONT GO TO HCL ALONE OK BABY ! i know both of us will head to the best college .. wait and watch....
KHUSBHOO.. NO MATTER HOW MUCH U TEASE ME.. TELL ME ON MY FACE THAT U HATE ME :p ;) ... I KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE .. U KNOW IM THERE FOR U.. TODAY AND FOR EVR..AND WHAT GOES AROUND ..COMES AROUND.. SO ITS VICE VERSA TOO.. BUT ..TU NAI SUDHREGI :p
AND NEHA... BABES.. U HAVE TAUGHT ME A LOTTT IN LIFE.. NOW I THINK BEFORE I DO ... AND ...SPEAKING W/O WORDS... I CANT FORGET THE DAYS AT CBIT HYDERABAD.. THOSE 3 DAYZ WERE SOME OF THE BEST DAYZ OF MY LIFE...
I LOVE U ALLLL SOOOOOOOO MUCH !
NIDHI.... PAGAL.. GADHI... IDIOT....STUPID (AND ALL THAT U PPL CALL ME)
Someone who is wonderful, who you're honored to know,
Someone to laugh with, and sometimes to cry,
Someone who loves you when you don't know why.
Someone who just seems to understand you,
Someone who you love no matter what they do,
Someone who you think of day and night,
Someone who shows up when the time is just right.
Someone who shares all your ups and downs,
Someone you smile with, replacing your frowns,
Someone who appears whenever there is a need,
Surely you must know, God planted that seed.
These seeds God has planted here on earth
Cannot be measured by earthly worth.
They were planted deeply in your friend's heart,
By God's love placed here from the start.
Value those friendships, honor their decisions,
Never try to make their dreams your revisions,
Respect their feelings, never make demands,
Hold their love tightly in your hands.
Never be angry if you don't talk to them each day,
For a heart can be loving even from far away.
Trust in friendship, send a piece of your heart,
This is how friendship was intended from the start.
Hold their memory in your heart and mind,
Continue to love them all the time,
See them for what they really are -
True friends are Angels sent by God from afar!
today i wrote the speech for the farewell that we'r gonna bid our seniors on the 24th this month...before i could complete it ... i had called almost all of my closest buddies in the college.. just one thought of em leaving me... it kills me..what am i without em... no matter how muh v argue.. how much khushboo teases me... no matter how much they eat my head... and bug me... thats where i belong,i've alwayz felt for ppl.. and atimes i'd get "dhoka" from ppl i considered my friends.. who helped me at such times... im my blues.. who made me into a girl like i am today.. who trnsformed me from a painfully arrogant girl to completely affable nidhi.. its em..
today mornin neha jha(one of our class mates)called me up to tell me that i had to come to college tommorrow for the rehersal of the whole thing with the speech... GOD ! shouldnt i be the first person to know that im hosting the show? lolz.. :| not funny... amrita has to sing and khushboo is planning to dance.. (i think that lolz suits here !)..well all our plans r in airs most of the time.. so im sure only ill reach the place :D
so i have been putting down words since then.. and i end up with a real long welcome speech and a sewwt vote of thanks.. rest .. ill leave on neha.i cant imagine even a day w/o talkin to my frnz if i cant meet em.. and puttin dowm words of bye byes.. y?did i murder some one? did i commit some sin? y am i been tortured by making me jot down such words.. its killing me to imagine the day when my juniors will speak such things in front of me...
most of my frnz r from different cities..not bhopal..
some of em have already got through gate ,and somw will(i know "WILL")get through CAT this year... and if not.. then we'll move out and stick to a job for a year before iim calls us :) .. which might take me to noida.. away from em all..
cant things be stable?cant v have ppl around us who really care for us.. for ever around us?y is change so constant?its not even 3 years that i have met em.. and im so much connected to em that.. im feelin so sick to imagine our departure from this place..
remember the song ....
"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
********But when we leave this year we won't be coming back********
*******No more hanging out cause we're on a different track*******
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
la la la la
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on,We remember
All the times we,Had together
And as our lives change,Come whatever
We will still be,Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school(college)?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
:D i have done this before ,when i was in 11th and we gave farewell to out seniors..at that time also i was the one who had to deliver such a speech..but at that time i was upset abt my seniors leavin me.. now i just relised that its a speech address my seniors and not me or my frns... we still have one year to go..
feelin better that its not me who's gonna cry.. its gonna be them .AND I DONT MIND SEEING THEM CRY !! HE HE HA HA HA ! BAHUT RULAYA THA NAAA HUM SABKO.. ABB KUDH ROO BETAAA !! :D
chalo ne wayz...
i g2g..
enough of bules..im gonna go and shop..moms not home.. n i got cash in my hands.. orders from pa..GO AND SHOP !!meri behin ki shaadi hai !!
:| ... AMRITA..!BABES.. IF I DONT GET INTO MBA(I WILL) THEN UR NOT DOIN MTECH EITHER ! ALTEAST UNTILL IIMS CALL ME..I WONT GO TO HCL ALONE OK BABY ! i know both of us will head to the best college .. wait and watch....
KHUSBHOO.. NO MATTER HOW MUCH U TEASE ME.. TELL ME ON MY FACE THAT U HATE ME :p ;) ... I KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE .. U KNOW IM THERE FOR U.. TODAY AND FOR EVR..AND WHAT GOES AROUND ..COMES AROUND.. SO ITS VICE VERSA TOO.. BUT ..TU NAI SUDHREGI :p
AND NEHA... BABES.. U HAVE TAUGHT ME A LOTTT IN LIFE.. NOW I THINK BEFORE I DO ... AND ...SPEAKING W/O WORDS... I CANT FORGET THE DAYS AT CBIT HYDERABAD.. THOSE 3 DAYZ WERE SOME OF THE BEST DAYZ OF MY LIFE...
I LOVE U ALLLL SOOOOOOOO MUCH !
NIDHI.... PAGAL.. GADHI... IDIOT....STUPID (AND ALL THAT U PPL CALL ME)
Monday, April 18, 2005
HERE I AM.. THIS IS ME... ..... ITS A NEW WORLD ITS A NEW START....
HEY ALL !
im nidhi.
nidhi.. means treasure.. what treasure??... in 20 years i couldnt figure out what kinda treasure i have or i yam..i guess everyone around is a treasure...some of love.. some understanding.. some of laughter.. some of smiles... some of kindness.. and some ..like me... a combination of all ;)
i ,as my blog suggests..am searching for myself..
last 20 years i have been on this planet...and only ppl i think i understand.. are my mom dad and my younger brother.. its on this note that i start believing in fate.. i get the best ... but not the satisfaction part of it... i have had the best of folks around me.. and i have been truthful to one and all honest.. clear hearted in every deed possible... but have never got results.. reason... lolz.. :D .... this explains y I believe in fate… every thing goes right… except ..time… J K
got all that I need… a job I hand… even after being from a pvt college whose age can b counted on fingers… friends… will crack CAT this time…. (YES I WILL)…scores in BE… good enough…
but im still in search… for love in return of what I giv.. honesty in return of honesty…faith I return of faith…. Friend in return of friend…. And its here that even if some one wants to give me the above…. Circumstances build up in such a way.. that im left search for it even more desperately…
so here I am… found a place to pour my heart…. Cry out loud… and beggin for mersy from lord above….
Y am I getting so sentimental? I the have fun and forget everything else types… but the fact is a fact is a fact… what ever I do.. im in search… and I wont ever end until I find a place .. a person.. a thing.. to heal me…
Well… this was abt myslf.. acc abt y I have named my page the way it is…
Y was I begging for mercy.. n what fate and returns was I talking abt… answering that will open 20 years in front of u…. which is a pretty big time..
So if u could tolerate the above…wait for more to come….
Now I know y my frnz like blogging…. Its making me feel light after putting down soo much…
Love…
And still in search….
Nidhi
im nidhi.
nidhi.. means treasure.. what treasure??... in 20 years i couldnt figure out what kinda treasure i have or i yam..i guess everyone around is a treasure...some of love.. some understanding.. some of laughter.. some of smiles... some of kindness.. and some ..like me... a combination of all ;)
i ,as my blog suggests..am searching for myself..
last 20 years i have been on this planet...and only ppl i think i understand.. are my mom dad and my younger brother.. its on this note that i start believing in fate.. i get the best ... but not the satisfaction part of it... i have had the best of folks around me.. and i have been truthful to one and all honest.. clear hearted in every deed possible... but have never got results.. reason... lolz.. :D .... this explains y I believe in fate… every thing goes right… except ..time… J K
got all that I need… a job I hand… even after being from a pvt college whose age can b counted on fingers… friends… will crack CAT this time…. (YES I WILL)…scores in BE… good enough…
but im still in search… for love in return of what I giv.. honesty in return of honesty…faith I return of faith…. Friend in return of friend…. And its here that even if some one wants to give me the above…. Circumstances build up in such a way.. that im left search for it even more desperately…
so here I am… found a place to pour my heart…. Cry out loud… and beggin for mersy from lord above….
Y am I getting so sentimental? I the have fun and forget everything else types… but the fact is a fact is a fact… what ever I do.. im in search… and I wont ever end until I find a place .. a person.. a thing.. to heal me…
Well… this was abt myslf.. acc abt y I have named my page the way it is…
Y was I begging for mercy.. n what fate and returns was I talking abt… answering that will open 20 years in front of u…. which is a pretty big time..
So if u could tolerate the above…wait for more to come….
Now I know y my frnz like blogging…. Its making me feel light after putting down soo much…
Love…
And still in search….
Nidhi
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